Tiring of London

So many of the non-British people I talk to in London wish they were somewhere else, yet they've been here for years. My Bangledishi duty manager at work hasn't been home in six years and has no plans to return, but doesn't particularly like London. The Turk who serves my white coffee every morning at Cafe Mezze tells me stories of how beautiful Turkey is, with its 26 degrees Celsius weather and beaches, yet hasn't been home for several years. He shakes his head when I ask him if he likes living here and says "12 years is too long here. Same thing every day."

There are so many stories like these. And it makes me wonder...why are people drawn to this city only to be miserable in it? Isn't there anyone here who loves waking up to the busy streets and honking taxi cabs, the fresh bakeries and endless wanderings down roads that make no sense, the anonymity that comes with the feeling of you and the city?

Then again, these people have been here for years, and I only three months. I can see how city life could wear on a person after awhile. The morning traffic that once energized you ends up smothering you with smog, the fresh bakeries don't cease their deliciousness but begin fattening you, it takes you hours to find anything on the confusing streets you once loved getting lost on, and your relationship with London turns into a love/hate one. Or maybe just hate.

I can see it happening. But not yet for me.


Andrea, Claudia, Amir and I are going to Edinburgh tomorrow! Amir called the front desk a few minutes ago as he often does in the mornings when I work, and I heard music blaring in the background, then a shout: "18 hours baby!" Every time he calls me in the morning, there is a different music playing loudly in his room. One day it's techno, the next it's Iranian. I sometimes think he puts the phone right next to the speaker when I pick up so I know that it's him. He's going to Dubai to start his career in his father's business next month, and I'm truly going to miss him and his morning calls.

On to Scotland! Hopefully I'll have stories of kilts and haggis and accents I can't understand in my next entry. Then back to London, happily. I'm not sick of the city yet.

Before London wakes

I need to seize the opportunity to write in the wee hours of the morning before my day breezes by with current residents collecting parcels, future residents calling to ask about accommodation and friends hanging around the front desk. One of the funniest parts of living in ISH is everything that could go wrong in a building this old does. There are currently leaks above the chandelier in the lobby that someone could shower in. It looks and sounds like rain. Quite pretty, if you think of it that way. Maintenance people are frantic and shouting at each other in Portuguese trying to figure out what to do. There is a recycling bucket on top of the reception desk and heavy blankets covering every other surface. When the CEO of ISH came in he said "Oh shit." and the maintenance guy said, "Well at the moment, it's just water"

British humor. Gotta love it.
There is so much to write about, I think I will just start from the most recent and work my way back.

Yesterday we went to Bodean's BBQ in Soho. It's a KC BBQ joint in the middle of London, and the owner of it is a KU grad! That's not the best part. The best is that when we were deciding to get take away or eat in, Andrea says to me, "Kelly, don't freak out, but Josh Hartnett just walked in the door." I thought she was just joking, but I turn around and sure enough, there was my teenage heartthrob AGAIN. So, it goes without saying that we stayed, and we happened to get a table right across from him and his friends. Best dinner I've ever had in London, I must say.

We had spent the day at Brick Lane market. I have an addiction to markets, though I don't think I spend that much at them. My favorite part is the bakeries that mark all of their delectable pastries down to £1 in the last hour. Yesterday I got a chocolate/almond flaky pretzel of deliciousness.

London is ready for Christmas. They were almost ready on the 1st of November. Now they're serious. Markets are getting ready, and there are lighting ceremonies all over the city for different neighborhoods. We're going to make a night of the Marylebone High Street lighting. That's the one right next to my hostel. There will even be fireworks! Maybe that will be the special occasion I've been waiting for to try mulled wine. It's a red wine simmered with spices. Apparently a holiday favorite around here, because it's everywhere. I had a mulled latte yesterday, and plan to have several a week for the next month or so because it was heaven!

We went horseback riding in Wales last weekend and stopped off at Chepstow Castle, the oldest stone castle in Europe, and Tintern Abbey, the remains of an abbey where Woodsworth wrote Lines Composed a Few Miles Above Tintern Abbey. Not the most original title, but now I see that maybe the beauty was too much to describe with anything more. Here are a few lines, followed by a shot of his inspiration:

Once again I hear
These waters, rolling from their mountain-springs
With a soft inland murmur. Once again
Do I behold these steep and lofty cliffs,
That on a wild secluded scene impress
Thoughts of more deep seclusion; and connect
The landscape with the quiet of the sky.



I think it's worth a few lines, yeah?

That night we went to a little village called Hay-on-Wye, which is also known as the Town of Books or the "Woodstock of the Mind" (Bill Clinton). It's packed with used bookstore, and even boasts the largest second-hand book shop in the world! There was one that was at the bottom of the castle and there were bookshelves lining the border of the square. It was called the "honesty bookstore" and you put 50p in a little box on the wall for a hardback, 30p in for paperback. I bought an amazing Welsh wool blanket at a store, too. They have sheep like we have cows...they graze all over everywhere.

That night we stayed at the hotel that inspired the Sherlock Holmes novel, The Hound of Baskervilles. It was such an old creepy hotel, but such a perfect place for us to stay. And the following morning, we rode horses for THREE HOURS in the freezing rain. That was about 2 1/2 hours too long. My horse's name was Eclipse, and I don't think he was fond of me because every time I tugged his reins a little he gave me a look. But he didn't buck me off, that's all I really cared about. In my mind, we parted as friends.

Oh, and last but not least, we saw the "sexiest toilet" in London...It was alright. Maybe not the sexiest, though.

Election buzz

"The true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth but the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity and unyielding hope" (Future) President Barack Obama

I was sleeping when history was made in America. News didn't break of Obama's win until about 4 am my time, but I was woken up with a phone call from Adam saying he won it. I couldn't sleep for awhile afterwards, even though I had to work at 7:45 this morning. I surfed CNN for awhile reading about the results. It's still unbelievable, and I wish I was in America to feel that energy. All eyes in London were on the election, whether people were genuinly interested in it or not. You couldn't avoid the topic. A Wisconsin student staying at ISH passed out "I voted" stickers to Americans, blue and red stars and stripe lights danced on the front of the church venue across the street for a watch party, and people filtered in and out of the ISH bar for our own party. When I walked in the bar for dinner, I felt a pang of homesickness. The room was plastered with American flags and they passed out plastic red/white/blue Uncle Sam hats. All night people asked me who I voted for. It's not considered as upfront here, because people were blunt in their asking. Many of the non-Americans had the mindset of it doesn't matter who's elected, America's and the world's problems won't be fixed by one man. It's so sad to me to see such a cynical view of America's future and potential as a world leader, but then I tell myself to look at how America's been run for the past eight years. All of the Americans were hopeful, though. As one student said to me this morning as he walked out, he's proud to be an American for the first time in his adult life, and he finally understands the concept behind the cheesy "I love America" country songs.

I'm out in Leicster Square to celebrate Obama's victory and Bonfire Night (as in V for Vendetta, I've been told.) There will be fireworks all night all across London. How fitting for the emotions at the moment!

All in a week!

Whenever I asked people what they were doing for Halloween, they usually responded with a half grimace and a shrug of the shoulders, then "That's more of something you Americans do..."
I dragged Amir, my Iranian friend and Claudia, my German friend to a Halloween party in Soho on Friday night. To prepare them, I had to brianstorm what their costumes would be. Their first Halloween costume! Can you imagine? Think of all the Halloweens you have had in your life and how your parents or siblings put on your makeup and held your hand to trick or treat, and welcomed you back from your treacherous night gathering candy with a warm mug of apple cider. Imagine not having those memories!
Amir is more conservative and didn't want to do anything too extreme, so I made him a Jack-o-Lantern. He had worn a bright orange sweater earlier in the week and it's the first thing I thought of. You can't get much more traditional than a Jack-o-Lantern on Halloween. So we shopped London all day on Friday for a green hat and found a beanie at H&M he's worn a few times since, so it wasn't even a waste of money! Then at work I colored and cut out a face and stuck it onto his sweater using rolled up "return to sender" stickers at the front desk. I must say, I was very proud of my creation. And when I told Nacho and Eva, two Spaniards, that he was a Jack-o-Lantern, they said, "A what?"
I couldn't believe it. No one's heard of a Jack-o-Lantern. When I showed them a picture they said, "Oooooh...a pumpkin!"
Claudia decided to be festive a little early, and dressed as a reindeer.

The club in Soho was alright. It was what I would expect for a big city...three levels under the domed ceiling of an old church with hundreds of people dancing. It wasn't that I disliked it, it was just nothing special to me. And my feet hurt like hell from walking over a mile in stilettos. My favorite part of the night was walking home on the famous Oxford Street, usually packed with tourists and the fabulously wealthy in London, instead crawling with intoxicated zombies and witches. As we walked up Great Portland Street, the crowd thinned and the streets were abandoned except for two drunk girls barely clothed in their superhero costumes, clinging onto each other as they stumbled and laughed their way home. They stopped on a corner to watch a guy jamming out by himself in his 2nd floor apartment, and two silent blocks later they came whizzing around the corner on the back of a bike taxi, whining about which direction to go to get home, then made the guy pull a U-turn right next to us to go the other direction.




Earlier in the week I regressed to my pre-teen years of loving Josh Hartnett, because I actually got to meet him! We went to his show, Rain Main at the Apollo Theatre and I might have actually gasped when he came onstage. After the show I planned to stalk him (yes, it is disturbing that these thoughts actually go through my mind so bluntly) and we go to the back stage door and there were about 50 other girls! Ruth turned to me and said, "What, did you think you'd be the only one?" There were strict rules to follow, as the security guard said "You can take pictures of Josh but you cannot take pictures WITH Josh." But I pushed my way to the front when he came out and was speechless. I just stared. I don't know what short wired in my brain, but I just stared and held out my ticket for him to autograph. Every night he does this, a mile away from where I live! So... Saturday night Amir, Claudia and I went to see Burn After Reading (hilarious movie) in Covent Garden, which happened to let out RIGHT when Rain Man ended, and Apollo Theatre is merely a five-minute stroll down the road, so yes. Yes, I am obsessed. Addicted, maybe, to Josh Hartnett. We went again and stood outside the back stage door to watch him like a zoo animal. Claudia said she thinks he recognized me from the previous night because I was a lunatic again just snapping pictures of him. I would hate being famous and beautiful because of crazy people like me.

What if...

Claudia and I went to the ISH bar last night to meet Joe, a 40-something business man and new friend who uses Regent's Gym downstairs. The first time I met him, I was reading a book at the front desk, and he asked what I was reading. Then I witnessed a literary explosion from him. He just went off about this book and that book and have I ever read this one. I was amused and nodded along using the skills I learned as a bartender to feign interest, not thinking I'd ever see him again, but he came the next day with a book in hand to lend to me! So after that, Joe and I started chatting every time he came in about books, then careers, then nonprofits. He is seriously involved in public service, was even nominated for recognition of his work in London. He was so nice to forward my CV on to his employer and began tapping into his connections to see if I could have any volunteer work in media or advertising. He invited me to a debate event at the U.S. Embassy on Monday night but when I RSVPed a day later, it was completely booked.

Last night at the ISH bar he introduced us to Arun, an adorable tiny white-haired Indian man who listened to stories in such an entertaining way I would watch him instead of the story teller. He would say "yes, yes" with hand motions and wide eyes then fall back in his chair laughing at the punchline.
When Arun found out that I have a degree in strategic communication and am temporarily at ISH he said "Well if I pass your CV on to companies and they like you, are you committed to working at ISH?" I had to pause because technically, I signed a six-month contract ending March 1. But I thought about it and said that if someone offered me a job in my field in LONDON FREAKING ENGLAND, I couldn't think twice about taking it.
Then he proposed something to me that did make me think twice. What if I volunteered or interned at an agency and they wanted to take me up in March when my contract is over with ISH?

This is something I secretly wished for when I made the trip over here. And I honestly don't know what I would say.

Well, I'm at work again today and disgusted with the weather. It's beautiful, sunny, and Saturday morning. A perfect day for markets, and I get to sit here all morning. It's okay, though. I'm going to Carmina Burana tonight at Royal Albert Hall which should be incredible. I was told that you have to dress up to appreciate the music, so maybe a new dress is in order...

Never thought I'd love Paris...

Paris...it seems so cliche, doesn't it?
But it's not, because cliches are overused and exaggerated, and usually cliche situations or places don't turn out as sweet as they sound.
Paris was everything people say and 10 times more.

I went there dragging my feet a bit, wishing I was going to Budapest or Amsterdam...anywhere with more substance than a fairy tale's happy ending with fluffy dogs and croissants. It's okay, I told myself. I'll always be able to say I saw the Eiffel Tower.

Then I arrived. The city is the most romantic place, extremely poetic and so so beautiful with the nature, the people and the architecture. First thing we did was take a boat cruise, which I really didn't appreciate as much as I could have because I didn't figure out until halfway through it that I could listen in English if I pressed a certain button. Then we waited in line for the Eiffel Tower.
I've been up the Hancock Building
the Space Needle.
the Sears Tower.
Hell, let's throw the top of the Hyatt in Kansas City in, too.
I've never understood what's so great about soaring thousands of feet in the air to look down at the tops of buildings and gridlocked streets. Until Paris.

I could have spent all night up there, and the next. I could have spent my entire weekend in Paris at the top of the Eiffel Tower and not have been disappointed at all. I would have told myself I could do it all the next trip: Montmatre would still be a hike, the graves would still be there in Pere Lachaise cemetery, and Paris nightlife would always be strong enough to forget the following morning. The sunset beyond the city seemed to be painted by the artists below it.

More on my Paris adventure when I'm more awake...

Watching the leaves change

I always knew I was a city girl.
Every city I've been in since I was a teenager, whether it was Chicago, Seattle, Houston, or elsewhere, I knew the energy of metropolitan life was for me. And oddly enough, when I thought of myself in a city, I never pictured a specific career I would be pursuing. I always thought about how I would spend my free time. Jogging along Lake Michigan's waterfront - going miles further than I would ever go at home - , or sipping a latte in a coffee shop shadowed by skyscrapers reading a book I still haven't had time to read.

I'm living a little of that life right now, and I love it. Though I haven't made it 10k nor finished reading nearly enough books.

I was running in Regent's Park today. The park is like a jigsaw puzzle, and every time I go I get to find a new piece of it. Today I noticed the leaves. I realized that they've been different every time. That's the only way I know the seasons are changing, my runs in Regent's. I jogged under a high ceiling of tree limbs today on a worn grass path next to the proper walkway, which was lined with benches. The ground was damp and covered in orange leaves that allowed pockets of grass to breathe in the gaps of their landings. Moss-covered trees tinted the pathway green on both sides, planted in perfectly measured distances, and the branches met at a peak like an arched hallway. I could see so far ahead of me, and I felt like I was the only person there.

In between my Regent's Park runs and long shifts at ISH, I've been planning my travels with friends. It makes me realize how little time I have here. Paris this week, Brighton the next, then it's November and a whole new month of traveling to Wales and Scotland.
All this traveling and working, and hardly any time to think seriously about my career choices. That's the reason behind this trip (or should I say justification?). I didn't know exactly what I should be doing where back in America, and I told myself that I might as well be confused about it in a different country. I've only learned that I know I want to continue my education, though I know not what in. I suppose a little progress is better than none.

Exciting news --finally figured out the slideshow tool! The pictures in the upper right show are mine, unlike the photo in this post, which I grabbed from a random site..